the year is 2023 and i’m watching i love lucy while smoking a joint. it’s very different from what i envisioned life to be but i’m happy. i was told recently by my grandparents that i need to do better career wise. being a work from home mom is not enough for them. my grandma AND my grandpa even tricked my ass by saying:
old ass abuelo: “what do you do”
me: ” i am the assistant to a high exec resume writer”
old ass grandpa: so you do all of her work?
me: yeah! im her right hand woman while she’s on vacations and whatever she needs
him: you can learn and copy and make your own business, no?
me: *realizing what he truly means* mmm i can but i dont want to. i’ve done corporate and that’s just not for me.
him: *disgusted*
me: i’d rather raise my daughter so in 15 years i don’t say, hm i wonder what happened.
me: look how fast I can type grandma
old ass abuela: *looks* but not in spanish?
me: no just english
her: mehhhh (LITERALLY SHE SAID MEH out loud)
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well uhhhhh fuck you. thanks for smuggling my parents across the border but what we are NOT going to do is spread hate learnt from whatever nasty soul you guys ended up with. we are going to lift each other up and support the other. me including by still sending love now but from a safe space for me.
that’s how they survive in my family. gossiping, judgement and ridicule. judgement because i am not drowning in a corporate job (mind you, i worked for 3 corporate jobs until i hated them eating my soul). the worst part about it all is that my mother, who’s parents are not hers, decided to say “well I work.” as if my at home job isn’t enough for any of them. which in fact she does not because she is lazy and i think depressed but she denies it and gaslights us any chance she gets to show she’s great.
anyway, thanks for reading my ted talk.
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